I've always had a very conflictual relationship with sleep. My natural sleep/wake cycle is the opposite of most people, as I go to sleep at 5.00 or 6.00 am and get up at 2.00 pm, more or less. That makes things very difficult in a society whose waking hours are very different. It is not just that, though. Nightmares (I mean terryfing way beyond description ones) were an issue for many years. Now they have disappeared, but I still have some quite interesting bad dreams and agitated nights of not-exactly sleep. Insomnia is yet another problem that plagues my nights now and then, often triggered by occasionally having to get up in the morning, and even more often by worries and looping thoughts. However, sleep is also the place where I find the solutions that escape me during my waking hours. And, above all, it is a condition/mechanism that fascinates and scares me deeply. I came up with the concept behind this album in 1995, even if I had probably been thinking about it for many years. I only composed one definitive track, though, which I have re-made now (track no 1 on this album). It sounds quite different from the original, of course, because now I am a very different person (I'm writing this in 2010). However, even if I wouldn't record it in the same way today, I have decided to include the original 1995 recording as a bonus track, as I think it still has something to say. I made it with the only instrument I had back then (a Roland D5) and by bouncing audiocasettes one track at a time. Anyway, the music on this album faithfully represents part of what sleep is to me today and what my nights are like...
Self-release